My School Life: The Time I Pretended to Be a Worthless Person at 21
Growing up, I was a dedicated student who always strived for excellence. I excelled in academics and extracurricular activities, and my goal was to gain admission to a prestigious university. However, when I turned 21, I started to feel overwhelmed by the pressures of succeeding. My once-motivated self started to lose confidence, leading me to a phase in my life where I pretended to be a worthless person.
The Beginning of My Struggle
My struggles began when I joined university, which was much more challenging than I had anticipated. I was no longer a big fish in a small pond, but a small fish in a vast ocean. My grades began to fall, and I started to develop negative thoughts about my abilities. I felt like I did not belong, and I was not cut out for success. I decided to stop trying and embraced the idea of failure.
Living as a Worthless Person
I pretended to be someone who did not care about their life. I stopped attending classes and didn’t turn in assignments. Whenever someone asked me about my future plans, I said, “I don’t know, I’m not worried about it.” I believed that by being apathetic, I would not be held accountable for my shortcomings.
In hindsight, this was a toxic mindset, and it only made my situation worse. My grades plummeted, and I started to develop anxiety and depression. My parents were worried, and my friends were concerned about me, but I did not care. I was happy with the notion of being a failure.
The Moment of Truth
My turning point came when I failed a critical course. This course was essential for my major, and without it, I would have to repeat a year. It was a harsh reality check – I had to snap out of my destructive behavior.
I started by getting help. I went to my professors and asked for guidance on how to improve my grades. I established a routine and set goals for myself. I also spoke to my family and friends and opened up about my struggles. They supported me and encouraged me to work harder.
The Road to Success
The road to success was not easy, and I had to put in a lot of effort. However, I learned that my mindset plays a crucial role in my success. By believing in myself and setting goals, I could achieve greatness. I also realized that failure is a part of life, and it’s how one responds to failure that matters.
Conclusion
In conclusion, pretending to be a worthless person was a low point in my life. However, it taught me valuable lessons about the power of the mind and the importance of seeking help. I learned that my worth is not determined by my successes or failures; it is determined by my character. I also learned that it’s never too late to turn things around and work towards success.
